Archive for September, 2012

The Definition of Insanity
September 17, 2012

I feel like I’ve been noticing the definition of insanity all over the place and it’s making me crazy. I’m not immune to it by any stretch of the imagination and perhaps that is what makes it so frustrating.

When I want to drop a dress size and I know that eating pizza once a week hinders that goal one would think that a rational, sensible person would stop calling Papa John’s.

I’ve been working the same job for 4+ years and keep coming up against the same roadblocks over and over again when I try to change my career path what do I do? Well, it took 4+ years for me to figure it out that this tactical plan of mine just isn’t working and that maybe, just maybe, I should try an alternative route.

So that’s what I’m working on.

It’s as if a light has gone off in my brain (hopefully an energy efficient bulb that will last twice as long) saying “wake up stupid!” and I am ready to make some real changes.

There are people in my life who are toxic. I make bad choices when I’m with them and they make me feel bad about myself. Do I stay because of a sense of obligation? I’ve invested so many years to the friendship that it would be foolish to walk away? Do I hope that this will be the night where we have fun again instead of spend the night getting angry/sad/annoyed?

Wake up stupid!!!

For work, I can keep plugging along and doing what I’ve been doing and hope that someday things will work in my favor or I can actually take an active role in my existence and do something about it! I have been on a very specific and very regimented career path since I was 16 years old. I never changed my major in college and moved to Lalaland mere weeks after graduation because that is what you do. I sometimes give my sister a hard time for following a pretty precise checklist for her domestic life however I followed one of similar design for my “Hollywood life”. Well that particular plan or strategy hasn’t worked for me so it’s about time I face that and examine the rest of the world.

Did you know how big the world is?!?

Since sophomore year of high school I never looked around to actually see all of the different possibilities. There was no point. I was driven, but to a point where I lost peripheral view of avenues that could be fantastic for me. I decided it’s about time I consider a Plan B.

And no not the emergency birth control option or the strip club in West LA.

More to follow but I wanted to give you an idea of some of the future entries.

I’ll still be providing my Yoda like wisdom to friends in desperate situations, but I’m also going to be doing a bit of “intervening” on my own behalf.

Because as the L’Oreal commercials tell me anytime I’m watching Lifetime, We, or Own…I’m worth it!

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